Fish Fodder aka My Bovada Experience...

This picture says it all. Got back to the grind today after taking a long, well 3 week, break from playing. I only played 3 times during that 3 weeks and only for about 4 hours total but I'm really ready to get back into it. 

I started playing on Bovada today. It's taking some getting used to but the fields are noticeably softer. Of course that could be because I was playing only $16.50s and under so fishy fields are to be expected. The anonymous tables take some getting used to but the tournament schedule, prize pools and soft fields make it worth it. 

I busted everything out of the money except the $3.30 $1K which I final tabled and finished in 6th place. It was nice to have the change of scenery and hopefully I can make some money, it's been way too long since that's happened. 

I'm suffering a bit from lack of confidence since I've had such a long crappy run but hopefully that will improve after a few more deep runs. At least my mindset has greatly improved. 

I'm pretty much broke on all the sites so I'll be playing mostly on Bovada for now. Let's run this shit up, okay!

I've lost that lovin' feeling - and the job...

I got a part-time job working at the Open Door Children's Home here in town. I work 25 hours a week for an organization that really does provide a great service. So far I'm enjoying what I'm doing and there is a lot of potential for the job to develop into something I love doing and that's fund raising for a great cause.

The home only takes kids over about 10 years old so there is mostly just teenagers since it's hard find foster home placement for them. It's pretty sad seeing all the teenagers who've been through so much in their short lives. It pretty much puts my petty woes into perspective.

On another note, I played a few MTTs tonight and I really didn't enjoy it at all. I haven't played any since my "I'm quitting" blog entry. I've been doing some reading, The Mental Game of Poker 2, which is great and Easy Game and I'm really enjoying both. I hope my love of poker hasn't gone away for good. I really hope to play again soon but I just have zero desire right now.

If anyone has been through this before and was able to get their love of the game back please let me know how you did it. I really don't want to give up the game after all the work I've put into it but I want to want to play and enjoy it again.

Mad World

I've made it one week. A few times I've had the desire to play but lost it pretty fast. I've been watching the WSOP coverage all week and even that hasn't motivated me to play. I thought about playing a little today but Sundays are way too soul crushing when things go badly so I decided against it.

I have however discovered Open Face Chinese Poker and I definitely see what all the buzz is about. It's a great fun game. I've only been playing on the Android ap but I really can't wait to play for some real money. That is after I get it figured out. It's some sick fun though.

I'll be doing some serious job hunting this week. I'd love to find some really good temporary fill in type work because I really don't want to be tied down to a regular job. So hopefully I can find something that suits me.

I might try to play a bit this coming week and then again I might not.

Good luck to everyone playing the WSOP main event.